Have you ever felt this way? It is a weird mindset to be in for an extended period of time and can definitely begin to have adverse effects on the psyche (in my experience). I think it's because there are no clear cut answers on how to find what it is I am looking for. In order to achieve this goal, I find myself brainstorming, reading, and seeking out individuals that have a grasp on what it is I am hoping to find. In the process, I have begun to implement various forms of self exploration and spiritual exercises and interests, which are listed below. If you have any input on anything I am currently exploring or other things I should integrate into my life, please let me know. I love learning.
Crystals | I will not proclaim to be, on any level, an expert on crystals. But, I want to learn. I am currently lightly collecting, reading, and understanding the benefits of crystals. I absolutely love the idea of getting different crystals to set personal intentions and to represent the different areas of your life and self on which you want to focus. See three of my little collections here, here, and here.
Guided Meditation | I have been very interested in guided meditation for a long time. However, I always struggled with incorporating it into my life. In the past, my attempts of utilizing guided meditation have resulted in me falling asleep within three to five minutes, which isn't very beneficial. In the last couple of months, I discovered Michael Sealy on YouTube and found his meditations and voice very soothing and helpful. Rather than meditate in the typical style of sitting or laying on the floor, I listen to Sealy's recordings during my daily early morning hour long walk. It helps guide my mind for the day ahead and although I am not concentrating on his words 100% of the time, I always refocus myself after a few minutes. My favorite recordings are Detachment from Overthinking and Clearing Subconscious Negativity.
Reading | I love reading books that transform my way of thinking. When I read The Four Agreements, my mind was blown. It really helped me gain a better understanding of life, relationships, and how to process interactions. My biggest takeaway from the book has been the agreement "Don't take things personally." I find myself reciting it to myself and others often, and it is always applicable. I am also working through a book about the chakras, which I find extremely fascinating.
Yoga | I have practiced yoga on and off for approximately 12 years. However, it was always done in the privacy of my own home, with the exception of the college class I took to fulfill my exercise requirement. Over the years, I found myself yearning to take my practice to the next level in the form of a weekly class. In June, I finally gained the courage needed to practice yoga with others. I have been going once a week, usually on Wednesday nights. I truly love the fact that there is so far for me to go and perfection will never be achieved. I am not hard on myself when I lose my balance or break a balancing pose, and appreciate my teacher for always taking the time to adjust my alignment. Starting in September, I will increase my practice to twice a week and am excited for the challenge, both physically and mentally. It is such a wonderful way to zone out, concentrate on my body and breathing, and escape my over analyzing mind.