I told Heidi a few weeks ago that getting married is overrated. I said that people who go around wishing they had a spouse were those that were looking for happiness in all the wrong places. The only person who can make you happy is yourself. I prefaced this thought by saying I may be completely ignorant because I've always had someone. And maybe I just have no idea what I'm talking about. Heidi agreed with my thoughts, but part of me wondered if she was just agreeing because she loves me.
From a young age I was taught to never depend on a man for happiness or money or comfort. That I don't need anyone. I brought this belief system into my marriage and so often find myself escaping into my own little world of taking care of myself, my house, and my husband, choosing to do everything on my own rather than asking him for help. It's a control issue, I know, but it's also the way I prove to myself that I'm a strong woman. That I'm independent. I'm married to the man I love, but I don't need him. I don't need anyone.
I was wrong, Heidi. It's ok to need someone. Marriage is a beautiful thing, full of hard work and unconditional love. And I hope one day you have it.
Red Lentil and Brown Rice Tacos
makes six tacos
1/2 c brown rice, dry
1/4 c red lentils, rinsed and picked over
1 1/2 c water
1/3-1/2 c mozzarella-style cheese shreds
6 hard tacos
vegan sour cream
1/2-3/4 c salsa (depending on your preference)
1 c shredded lettuce
Combine rice, lentils, and water in a medium pot. Bring to boil, cover, and reduce heat to low. Allow to cook until all water has been absorbed (about 30-40 minutes).
Preheat oven to 400. On an unlined baking sheet, place taco shells. Sprinkle cheese on the inside, bottom half of shell. Bake for 3 minutes.
After shells have cooled, take one and, using a butter knife, spread sour cream on the inner half without the melted cheese. Fill the shell 3/4 of the way with the rice/lentil mixture. Top with approximately two tablespoons of salsa, and complete with lettuce. Repeat with remaining taco shells and ingredients. Enjoy!